my fears have wound me out
hmm, i'm really happy today.
went shopping with mum.
and i bought quite a few things. (:
my roxy studded belt which is white.
roxy shorts and a roxy t-shirt too.
and i got a roxy pencil case for a present.
haaa. all roxy. how nice. lol.
i'ma gonna get jeans soon ! yay.
and i'm gonna get the cap as well. heh.
okay. whatever
i miss my friends tons ):
i'm reallly lazy to come online nowadays. hah
love. <3
8:13 PM
redemption
hey all,
today was so freaking cold. and it sorta rained as well. so it was pretty bad.
had english maths double art and double pe.
maths was just boring.
we had this geometry test like 2 weeks ago. and our teacher told us our results.
i think i got the WORST.
44% and the grade is E
it's pretty sad i guess. sigh.
pe was just lame. table tennis tournament.
me and my partner got last place. ha ha ha !
yeah. and i miss everyone like hell.
ugh. life sucks. like TOTALLY !
i want my old life back. sigh.
misses & love.
mel, OUT.
7:56 PM
insecure & incomplete
hi all.
i'm not o-kay.
i feel terrible.
i feel really alone and rejected.
sometimes i feel that i have no one really to turn to in need.
and no, i'm not complaining.
i'm just going through a tough time without my friends.
i miss everyone alot.
and the most..
xiu dezi sara regina nicole cherre justina chloe bonnie shobana vishalini lava
basically EVERYONE who is close to me
i had a horrible nightmare last night.
i'm scared.
i'm scared of what's gonna happen to me.
and everyone.
the future.
i don't wanna be forgotton.
but it's so difficult.
it's so bloody difficult trying to hard.
trying to be fucking perfect.
I'M NOT O FUCKING KAY.
i miss my friends ): alot.
love.
3:54 PM
hello all.
i think i stand a high chance of coming back this year
my parents have been looking at websites which can book tickets.
it's not comfirmed..
but it might be a good chance.
so pray for me
i miss everyone shit loads.
and if i go on any longer like this i'll rather DIE.
so yeah.
<3 all
and i miss everyone ): truely.
9:59 PM
hey dezi. you HAVE to cheer up. like seriously. for me okay ?
it's not the end-of-the-world. you still got me. and nice fishes ! haha.
okay. it's the end of the world for me ! i dont have you guys to give me the venom.
haha. i'm running out of energy trying already. it's so difficult sometimes.
anyway, cheer up. andddddddddddddd. study hard ! and i'll call you soon. REALLY SOON.
promise. in fact ima hoping to call you tomorrow, because i love you. haha.
now. SM:)e for me and tell me you are better okay ?
you know i love you truckloads and toad loads la ! (:
HEARTS HONEH <333
MIGHT come back like end of this year. So pray for me that my dad/mum gets a good promotion or some thing and makes good money so i can visit you all.
I'm going crazy really. I miss everyone really bad.
I know some people forgot about me. But it happens. I wont. I promised already. Yeah.
I'm in <33333333 with this converse shoe i saw yesterday. Its purple. Light purple. And its PRETTY. Its $65. I'm hoping to get it soon [: Yay for me. Hahaha. Yeah. Heres another sexy converse shoe. 
Converse just rocks. Their all star shoes are so nice. Haha. But i still love adidas superstars more. Lol. Okay. Whatever.
My face has offically turned fugly. I have some sort of shit rash on it i think. And it sucks please. Gonna see doctor tomorrow. Lol. Okay. <3 all. Its bed time for me :D
8:35 PM
HI ALL.
I'm in a quite good mood. Which is pretty abnormal. But hell.
I have put up my hopes abit.. But i think it's a little too high :/
But it won't hurt will it ? Yeah
Chatting with dezi somehow made me happy :D
Hahaha. Oh well.
I'm FINALLY almost recovered from my flu. Too bad i have to school tomorrow. Ugh.
Anyhow, had dinner at my aunt's place today. Celebrating my other aunt's birthday.
And my aunt's dogs had a hair cut. They look like rats; AGAIN ! Blah.
I have pics too. Too lazehhhhh :D
Okay. There is still hope..
PRAY ! Hehehe. Whatever.
LOVE ALL. <3
xoxo
8:44 PM
